Little Women??

Do I have "BRAINLESS TWIT" tattooed on my forehead? So part of what has me in a funk came to light tonight. And truthfully not just the funk from the last few days, although this hasn't helped that any either. I've said before that jase and I have been together for 10 years. In the last few days I keep thinking to myself that lots of people I know and love think I'm either stupid, have no opinion of my own, am in some way brainless or ditzy, or for some ungodly reason desire to be "taken care of" or in general treated like the "little women". (I know that a lot of quotes but I think that just drives home the absurdity of it all.) We just bought a new to us truck to replace my car that crapped out last summer. Now we have been sharing 1 vehicle for almost an entire year and really it hasn't been too much of a hassle. I've said before that I have been hiding lately and part of that included me not really leaving the house all that much especially by myself or for periods of time that would be a problem for Jase not having a car at home. So it really hasn't been a problem but as I'm digging out of my self imposed exile I've been out and about a lot more. We have been looking at getting another car for a while now and I really wanted a truck. I had a few specifications that we really tried to meet at least most of. We found it. The Truck. I said we spent most of the day Thursday tooling around with my in laws to look at the few we found in our price range and for the most part it was a good day. I don't really like car shopping in the first place, I always feel like I get treated like I don't know what I want or anything about cars in general. Which to some extent the latter is true. And I know not all car salesmen behave this way, my Dad sold cars for a few years so I know there are some genuine and helpful people out there. It's just something that I always brace myself for. Anyways by the 4th maybe 5th lot I was done it was hot and I was getting frustrated and frankly a little bored. We had dropped my FIL off at work so it was hubs his mom and I when we finally went to see the last one on the list. I hung back and a little the "dynamic duo" taking charge, we test drove it, asked some questions, and sat down to talk money. At this point it felt like I was hardly needed. When it was finally remembered that I was indeed there and maybe had an opinion I just went with it and pulled out the check book. I am happy with the car, we didn't pay over what I was comfortable with, and we drove it home that night.
This is getting a little whiny which is ick so I'm gonna hurry it up.Tonight I felt steam rolled again, although I did make my opinion known nobody really listened. I'm gonna finish in a part 2 I think cause right now I'm mad and talking typing whatever shouldn't be done when I wanna scream or throw my hands up and say "to hell with it!"