We went away for the weekend. My parents have a pop up camper that we borrowed and went down to Pike's Peak for the weekend. J's family has a few sites down there and the whole lot of us trooped down for some fun and sun. For the most part we had a great time. There were some snippy moments and a couple f**k all moments where i wanted to pack it all in and head home. I don't know why. I've said before, my mother in law tends to take over, she can be a force of nature. Sunday night some things were said, to me and about us, that put me in a funk. I was all good to hide out nest door in our camper and chill. I know she thought she was helping, Momma came over and tried to cheer me outta my funk. Sis brought the baby over to cheer me to. It was all to much I finally said I needed a minute and would be over in a few. I was already feeling weird and after 20 minutes of "cheering" I'll admit I was pissy. I snapped at Jase, I needed a few minutes to get myself back together, and although they meant well the last thing I needed was Momma and Sis acting like I was being stubborn and blowing things out of proportion. I know they all meant well including Jase but I didn't feel that way at the time. We went over and played cards for a while, we sat and chatted for a while, we sat around the fire for a while. Everyone gave me a pretty wide berth. I finally went over and played solitaire. And cried. And probably felt a little sorry for myself. And felt sorry for Jase for having to deal with me.
SIGH...........I'm trying to not let this kind of thing overshadow all the good stuff. They just creep in on everything. So i came back a little bit relaxed, a little bit frustrated, with burnt shoulders........... SIGH
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